Friday, February 14, 2020

My Dogs Decide What I Eat for a Day

I'm back on the YouTube track! 😉I have been putting out LOADS of new content on Patreon in the past few days/weeks, and here I am, again, with another video for the channel as well! Just for a bit of fun, to get back in to it, the dogs are deciding my meals for one day. Go ahead and check it out!

Wednesday, January 22, 2020

Am I Still Affected by MY EATING DISORDER? What Were my Biggest Highs and Low IN RECOVERY?

 I know this video is way too long and the quality is poop. But there you go — ALL of your questions answered.
⬇ Check out the resources and time-stamps to find what you've been seeking answers to ⬇

Friday, December 27, 2019

How I Gained Over 40 Pounds (20 Kilos) | 10 Tips

Welcome back for another video! It has been a little while! To make up for that fact, I finally got around to making a video that has been VERY highly requested. Namely, my anorexia recovery journey... and gaining 20 kg.

Wednesday, November 27, 2019

Welcome, Warriors! ❤

Hi there! My name is Hanne Arts and a I'm twenty-two year old student, author, YouTuber, and recovery warrior. I started writing when I was about seven, and I began incorporating some of my own mental health struggles into my works from the age of thirteen. I published my debut novel, JUST PERFECT, in December 2014, followed by its sequel, RED RIBBONS, in October 2017.

But that's quite a condensed version of my life, don't you think?

As a child, my life was perfect.  

That is, until it wasn’t anymore.  

In January 2010, I was diagnosed with an eating disorder, anorexia. In February 2010, I was hospitalized. Since then, I have been in and out of hospitals, consistently struggling to build my life up whilst sliding back down.

If someone would have told me, even just five years ago, that things would get better, I don’t think I could have suppressed my laughter. It would have been sinister laughter. Why-on-earth-would-you-say-that laughter, like that of an evil character in a children’s film. I did not believe that I would ever make it out; I felt helpless and trapped in the embrace of an illness that once, just briefly, had promised me that everything would be fine. Everything would be okay if only I tossed out that snack, if only I skipped that meal.  

For almost six years of my life, my mind was consumed. I was obsessed. I fell into the eating disorder’s arms, unable to break free. Every morning and every night, I would sneak upstairs to weigh myself. Every mealtime, I would consider how to get away with eating less and less. Every night, I cried myself to sleep. I felt worthless. I wished for a way out.  

I wished to sleep. Forever. When the morning sun awoke me from a restless night, I was disappointed. A new day – the same struggles.

Meanwhile, I saw my parents break down. Whilst I turned into a shadow of my former self, they crumbled. They forced me to eat, threatened me with hospitalization, and showered me with more love than I knew anyone could hold within one’s heart. And I hated them for it.  

After all, it was the one thing keeping me there. It was the only thing keeping me tied to the life I so desperately wanted to step out of.  

They sobbed and I sobbed; they sent me to treatment and I went. Gradually, the weight crept up. Gradually, the bad moods lifted, if even just a little. What was there, I wondered, further down this path? Would the veil that obscured my life finally lift? Was there a light at the end of the tunnel?  

There was no way to know. Not unless I followed the path. And I decided it was worth the risk.   

Let me tell you now, it is worth the risk. It is a winding road, but it is paved; there are poisonous berries and thorn bushes, but no bad wolves or evil gnomes. It sure as hell is a safer route than the alternative, and I really think you should consider it. You won’t know if you don’t try.   

Had I not taken the risk, I would have never known. I would have never experienced the wonders that make up life. I would have never experienced shameless pleasure, unapologetic joy, and that incredible emotion that comes so naturally to children – carefree nonchalance.   

Today, I live abroad, I attend university, and I have a boyfriend. Food is no longer at the forefront of my priorities list. I am ED- thought and behaviour free. I have a successful YouTube channel and two much-praised published books. I work, I travel, I enjoy my life.  

And I know that I will wake up tomorrow morning, excited when the sun awakes me from a restful sleep.

What I Eat in a Day as a Busy Vegan Student (Anorexia Recovered)

Just for you... A NEW VIDEO ON A WEDNESDAY AFTERNOON! It's a What I Eat video featuring lots of uni-time, quick/easy/healthy meals (what's new?) and the way I'm currently 'experimenting' on myself... Check it out :) xx

Friday, November 8, 2019


Who said cooking needs to be challenging and time-consuming? Today I'm sharing 3 non-conventional yet cheap, healthy, quick and tasty vegan meals! It's a little unexpected video that I managed to crank out inbetween lots of hard uni work. ENJOY 😀 (& obviously share your wonderful creations with me xx)

Friday, October 11, 2019

What I Eat + HONEST LIFE UPDATE | Quitting Social Media, Body Image & What's in my Fridge

After a little social media and YouTube break, I have now been back at university for two weeks. And it has been odd to get back into my studying routine.

Before leaving on holidays, I was too busy stressing myself out with, well, everything. I successfully published my first-ever article in a scientific journal, and I blogged for the organisation Help Eating Disorders. I was also working hard on my writing projects, dissertation, etc. etc. It was becoming overwhelming!

Thursday, October 3, 2019

What I Eat in a Day | Challenging ED FEARS at EVERY Meal

After a little social media and YouTube break, we are BACKKKK in the game (and back at university). Before uploading my video chock-full of information and updates (next week), I thought I'd keep things light with another little challenge video (I couldn't go all deep after two weeks of sunshine in the beautiful Fuerteventura).