Sunday, June 20, 2021

I QUIT MY JOB *during the pandemic*

I quit my job. And vlogged this chaotic day in my life ft. what I ate today. (You're welcome.)

Sunday, June 13, 2021


What I ate last week: camping edition! Enjoy this 'what I eat in a day' ft. eating disorder then versus now comparison (i.e. challenging all of my ED food rules and loving it!)

Let me know in the comments: how are you taking care of yourself and your mental wellbeing this week?

Monday, May 31, 2021

Navigating Society’s ‘Ideal’ Body Shape, Kcal on Menus & Diet Culture

Navigating society’s ‘ideal’ body shape, calories on menus & diet culture in eating disorder recovery -- a mental health update and rant about what it's like to recovery into society's 'ideal' body shape, managing toxic 'recovery community' comments, and how to stop comparing yourself to others.

Sunday, May 23, 2021

How to Feel More Feminine | 10 Tips

Post-eating disorder, I struggled with body confidence and feeling feminine. In fact, the eating disorder had always been my safety, my protection, from my own sexuality and my feminine energy. Nowadays, however, I chose to embrace this confident part of me. Nowadays, I feel more feminine, and these are my best tips.

Sunday, May 9, 2021


What I Eat in a Week to honor my hunger and stay fit. *The* video filled with food, recipes, and how I fixed my metabolism and eat whatever I want (post eating disorder).

Tuesday, May 4, 2021

How to Get Out of a Rut (+ WHAT I ATE TODAY)

Hey Warriors!!!! How are you all doing as we go into May? Good, or not so good? Well, I'm here to make things BETTER! To celebrate the end of the full-on lockdown in the UK, the start of sunny summer weather, and the approach of better times ahead, I thought I'd treat you all... to discounted Q&A time on Patreon! Normally valued at TWICE THE PRICE, the one-on-one tier will now be available for only $10... throughout all of May!

Monday, April 19, 2021

Lasting Eating Disorder Recovery: CHALLENGE WEEK

Eating disorder recovery is not linear. For lasting ED recovery, face your fear foods, challenge your food rules, and step outside your comfort zone! Let me know: which of these challenges has been the most trying for you?

Sunday, April 11, 2021

Welcome, Warriors! ❤

Hi there! My name is Hanne Arts and a I'm a Psychology graduate, author, YouTuber, and recovery warrior. I started writing when I was about seven, and I began incorporating some of my own mental health struggles into my works from the age of thirteen. I published my debut novel, JUST PERFECT, in December 2014, followed by its sequel, RED RIBBONS, in October 2017.

But that's quite a condensed version of my life, don't you think?

As a child, my life was perfect.  

That is, until it wasn’t anymore.  

In January 2010, I was diagnosed with an eating disorder, anorexia. In February 2010, I was hospitalized. Since then, I have been in and out of hospitals, consistently struggling to build my life up whilst sliding back down.

If someone would have told me, even just five years ago, that things would get better, I don’t think I could have suppressed my laughter. It would have been sinister laughter. Why-on-earth-would-you-say-that laughter, like that of an evil character in a children’s film. I did not believe that I would ever make it out; I felt helpless and trapped in the embrace of an illness that once, just briefly, had promised me that everything would be fine. Everything would be okay if only I tossed out that snack, if only I skipped that meal.  

For almost six years of my life, my mind was consumed. I was obsessed. I fell into the eating disorder’s arms, unable to break free. Every morning and every night, I would sneak upstairs to weigh myself. Every mealtime, I would consider how to get away with eating less and less. Every night, I cried myself to sleep. I felt worthless. I wished for a way out.  

I wished to sleep. Forever. When the morning sun awoke me from a restless night, I was disappointed. A new day – the same struggles.

Meanwhile, I saw my parents break down. Whilst I turned into a shadow of my former self, they crumbled. They forced me to eat, threatened me with hospitalization, and showered me with more love than I knew anyone could hold within one’s heart. And I hated them for it.  

After all, it was the one thing keeping me there. It was the only thing keeping me tied to the life I so desperately wanted to step out of.  

They sobbed and I sobbed; they sent me to treatment and I went. Gradually, the weight crept up. Gradually, the bad moods lifted, if even just a little. What was there, I wondered, further down this path? Would the veil that obscured my life finally lift? Was there a light at the end of the tunnel?  

There was no way to know. Not unless I followed the path. And I decided it was worth the risk.   

Let me tell you now, it is worth the risk. It is a winding road, but it is paved; there are poisonous berries and thorn bushes, but no bad wolves or evil gnomes. It sure as hell is a safer route than the alternative, and I really think you should consider it. You won’t know if you don’t try.   

Had I not taken the risk, I would have never known. I would have never experienced the wonders that make up life. I would have never experienced shameless pleasure, unapologetic joy, and that incredible emotion that comes so naturally to children – carefree nonchalance.   

Today, I live abroad, I attend university, and I have a boyfriend. Food is no longer at the forefront of my priorities list. I am ED- thought and behaviour free. I have a successful YouTube channel and two much-praised published books. I work, I travel, I enjoy my life.  

And I know that I will wake up tomorrow morning, excited when the sun awakes me from a restful sleep.