Sunday, November 14, 2021

Cupshe Athleisure Try On Haul | FEELING CONFIDENT AFTER WEIGHT GAIN

Today is a Cupshe athleisure wear try on haul & honest review! Let me know your favorite gym outfit and your best self-confidence tip in the comments, and don't forget to like and subscribe! 

Sunday, November 7, 2021

*Honest* Weight, Life and Mental Health Update Weight, life and mental health update

This was long overdue, so today I am finally back to tell you where I have been (in my life / eating disorder journey / mental health), and how I have been and what my plans are going forward. Don't forget to reflect on these aspects in your own life as well!

Sunday, October 31, 2021

Welcome, Warriors! ❤

Hi there! My name is Hanne Arts and a I'm a Psychology graduate, author, YouTuber, and recovery warrior. I started writing when I was about seven, and I began incorporating some of my own mental health struggles into my works from the age of thirteen. I published my debut novel, JUST PERFECT, in December 2014, followed by its sequel, RED RIBBONS, in October 2017.

But that's quite a condensed version of my life, don't you think?










As a child, my life was perfect.  

That is, until it wasn’t anymore.  

In January 2010, I was diagnosed with an eating disorder, anorexia. In February 2010, I was hospitalized. Since then, I have been in and out of hospitals, consistently struggling to build my life up whilst sliding back down.

If someone would have told me, even just five years ago, that things would get better, I don’t think I could have suppressed my laughter. It would have been sinister laughter. Why-on-earth-would-you-say-that laughter, like that of an evil character in a children’s film. I did not believe that I would ever make it out; I felt helpless and trapped in the embrace of an illness that once, just briefly, had promised me that everything would be fine. Everything would be okay if only I tossed out that snack, if only I skipped that meal.  

For almost six years of my life, my mind was consumed. I was obsessed. I fell into the eating disorder’s arms, unable to break free. Every morning and every night, I would sneak upstairs to weigh myself. Every mealtime, I would consider how to get away with eating less and less. Every night, I cried myself to sleep. I felt worthless. I wished for a way out.  

I wished to sleep. Forever. When the morning sun awoke me from a restless night, I was disappointed. A new day – the same struggles.

Meanwhile, I saw my parents break down. Whilst I turned into a shadow of my former self, they crumbled. They forced me to eat, threatened me with hospitalization, and showered me with more love than I knew anyone could hold within one’s heart. And I hated them for it.  

After all, it was the one thing keeping me there. It was the only thing keeping me tied to the life I so desperately wanted to step out of.  

They sobbed and I sobbed; they sent me to treatment and I went. Gradually, the weight crept up. Gradually, the bad moods lifted, if even just a little. What was there, I wondered, further down this path? Would the veil that obscured my life finally lift? Was there a light at the end of the tunnel?  

There was no way to know. Not unless I followed the path. And I decided it was worth the risk.   

Let me tell you now, it is worth the risk. It is a winding road, but it is paved; there are poisonous berries and thorn bushes, but no bad wolves or evil gnomes. It sure as hell is a safer route than the alternative, and I really think you should consider it. You won’t know if you don’t try.   

Had I not taken the risk, I would have never known. I would have never experienced the wonders that make up life. I would have never experienced shameless pleasure, unapologetic joy, and that incredible emotion that comes so naturally to children – carefree nonchalance.   

Today, I live abroad, I attend university, and I have a boyfriend. Food is no longer at the forefront of my priorities list. I am ED- thought and behaviour free. I have a successful YouTube channel and two much-praised published books. I work, I travel, I enjoy my life.  

And I know that I will wake up tomorrow morning, excited when the sun awakes me from a restful sleep.

Challenge your Eating Disorder Food Rules | EMBRACING FULL RECOVERY

Are you stuck in quasi-recovery from your eating disorder? Are you stuck, bargaining with the eating disorder and compromising on your food decisions? It's time to challenge your eating disorder food rules!

Sunday, September 12, 2021

Eating disorder recovery update: ADDRESSING MY WEIGHT LOSS

If I'm recovered from my eating disorder, what's with my recent weight loss? Why do I over-exercise? Why do I ignore/dispute my eating disorder recovery struggles when they're SO OBVIOUS? Here's my honest life update: addressing my body dysmorphia, my self-doubt, 'my weight loss'... 

I know that most of you are so so soooo supportive, and I just want to take a moment to thank you all from the bottom of my heart. This is not a goodbye. I think some of the comments I received were just the final push to give myself this little break, and I will embrace this break with open arms. There's so much going on in my life at the moment and I'm loving it! But it's definitely a lot. And I will use the time well. 

In the meantime, hit the little notification bell. Keep your eye out. I will be back. And make sure to join the Patreon family, because I'll remain active there for all of you who have supported me for all of this time. 

For all of you who follow me on Patreon or are thinking of signing up, here's the deal: I will keep uploading onto Patreon, tailoring this content to all of you - the amazing Patrons who support me - even more so than before, and to the best of my ability. For the next few weeks/months, I plan to post weekly, answering a new Patreon question every other week and keeping the conversation going. Definitely let me know what YOU want to see. 

I will also put more of my efforts into the 1-to-1 consultations. So many of you have been signing up, and I want to give you all my fullest attention. I love interacting with you! 

Thank you all so much for sticking with me through all of the ups and downs. Your support has been incredible and I honestly cannot put my gratitude into words. See you all soon xx 

Saturday, September 11, 2021

WHAT I EAT IN A DAY | living alone, realistic + workout routine

After eating like Simone Biles and Elzani, and after a few fear food challenges, I thought it was time to cast a glance into my actual day-to-day eating pattern! With my boyfriend out of the house, this is what I eat in a day (vegan, easy, realistic) and how I work out! Details + recipes in the description of the YouTube video :)

Sunday, September 5, 2021

Eating Disorder Recovery Q&A | AM I EATING ENOUGH?

Another eating disorder recovery Q&A, answering all your questions from how much to eat in anorexia recovery to bingeing to confidence. Leave any more questions below for inclusion in a future ED recovery Q&A!

Sunday, August 8, 2021

I Drank Chlorophyll for a Week | Here's What Happened (Acne, Bloating, etc.)

I drank chlorophyll for 7 days to see if it would clear my skin, reduce bloat and eliminate body odor. Did it work? The trend has been all over TikTok so it was time to put it to the test! Here's my experience with liquid chlorophyll.