Monday, November 23, 2020

Dealing with Bad Body Image in Eating Disorder Recovery

Honest chat about my recent weight loss, anxiety, and body image struggles, & what I'm doing to deal with bad body image post-eating disorder. Please note: I have not relapsed. I am going through a rough patch but the ED is no longer part of it.

Sunday, November 15, 2020

What Should I Eat for EATING DISORDER Recovery?

What should you eat in anorexia recovery? How much and when should you eat? Recovery is difficult enough as is, so today I attempt to answer your most pressing questions! 

Monday, November 9, 2020

FULL WEEK OF EATING YOUR FEAR FOODS (eating disorder recovery)

Welcome to another video! To be honest, after a 50-hour work week (of which 31 hours yesterday and the day before), I'm quite tired and at a loss for words... but I'll let the new video do the talking ;-) I know you all loved last week's '24 HOURS EATING YOUR FEAR FOODS.' And I'm convinced you'll love today's video... a FULL WEEK EATING YOUR FEAR FOODS! Grab yourself a snack and go give it a watch!

Sunday, November 1, 2020

24 Hours Eating Your Fear Foods

I hope you've had a great week, full of recovery wins! I hope you've been able to tackle your fear foods and kick the ED in the butt! I know that I've definitely eaten quite a few foods that used to scare the living daylight out of me! However, I've eaten them WITHOUT any fear. Want to know how?  

Monday, October 26, 2020

Why You SHOULD Exercise in Eating Disorder Recovery

Did you know that some individuals in eating disorder recovery could benefit from exercising? Whilst exercise during eating disorder recovery can be detrimental to mind and body (increasing cortisol circulation and putting unnecessary stress on the body), there are times where it can be beneficial, too. Today I share when (and why) exercising is the right thing to do, who should exercise, and what exercises to carry out for a healthy mind and body!

Monday, October 12, 2020

What I Eat ON MY PERIOD

Hi Warrior,  I hope you are doing well this week, and that the past weekend has refuelled and recharged you for this upcoming week! As for me, I worked on Saturday and Sunday so I am knackered. Nevertheless, I did not want to leave you in the dark, so here I am again, with another video! Today I am showing you what I eat... whilst experiencing the strangest cravings leading up to my period

Sunday, October 4, 2020

Welcome, Warriors! ❤

Hi there! My name is Hanne Arts and a I'm a Psychology graduate, author, YouTuber, and recovery warrior. I started writing when I was about seven, and I began incorporating some of my own mental health struggles into my works from the age of thirteen. I published my debut novel, JUST PERFECT, in December 2014, followed by its sequel, RED RIBBONS, in October 2017.

But that's quite a condensed version of my life, don't you think?










As a child, my life was perfect.  

That is, until it wasn’t anymore.  

In January 2010, I was diagnosed with an eating disorder, anorexia. In February 2010, I was hospitalized. Since then, I have been in and out of hospitals, consistently struggling to build my life up whilst sliding back down.

If someone would have told me, even just five years ago, that things would get better, I don’t think I could have suppressed my laughter. It would have been sinister laughter. Why-on-earth-would-you-say-that laughter, like that of an evil character in a children’s film. I did not believe that I would ever make it out; I felt helpless and trapped in the embrace of an illness that once, just briefly, had promised me that everything would be fine. Everything would be okay if only I tossed out that snack, if only I skipped that meal.  

For almost six years of my life, my mind was consumed. I was obsessed. I fell into the eating disorder’s arms, unable to break free. Every morning and every night, I would sneak upstairs to weigh myself. Every mealtime, I would consider how to get away with eating less and less. Every night, I cried myself to sleep. I felt worthless. I wished for a way out.  

I wished to sleep. Forever. When the morning sun awoke me from a restless night, I was disappointed. A new day – the same struggles.

Meanwhile, I saw my parents break down. Whilst I turned into a shadow of my former self, they crumbled. They forced me to eat, threatened me with hospitalization, and showered me with more love than I knew anyone could hold within one’s heart. And I hated them for it.  

After all, it was the one thing keeping me there. It was the only thing keeping me tied to the life I so desperately wanted to step out of.  

They sobbed and I sobbed; they sent me to treatment and I went. Gradually, the weight crept up. Gradually, the bad moods lifted, if even just a little. What was there, I wondered, further down this path? Would the veil that obscured my life finally lift? Was there a light at the end of the tunnel?  

There was no way to know. Not unless I followed the path. And I decided it was worth the risk.   

Let me tell you now, it is worth the risk. It is a winding road, but it is paved; there are poisonous berries and thorn bushes, but no bad wolves or evil gnomes. It sure as hell is a safer route than the alternative, and I really think you should consider it. You won’t know if you don’t try.   

Had I not taken the risk, I would have never known. I would have never experienced the wonders that make up life. I would have never experienced shameless pleasure, unapologetic joy, and that incredible emotion that comes so naturally to children – carefree nonchalance.   

Today, I live abroad, I attend university, and I have a boyfriend. Food is no longer at the forefront of my priorities list. I am ED- thought and behaviour free. I have a successful YouTube channel and two much-praised published books. I work, I travel, I enjoy my life.  

And I know that I will wake up tomorrow morning, excited when the sun awakes me from a restful sleep.

My 7 Best Recovery Motivations | Things to Look Forward to Post-Eating Disorder

I want to start out this post by asking you a few questions. And, no, they're not very nice questions, but, yes, they are still very important questions. Give them some thought.
  1. Have you restricted your intake today?
  2. Have you been struggling this week?
  3. Are you finding it hard to motivate yourself and to nourish your body?