Friday, July 3, 2020

Full Day of Eating (& How NOT to EAT INTUITIVELY)

A lot has changed since I struggled with my eating disorder, and a lot has changed since I relied on others to decide my meals and help me refeed (I can't repeat enough how important a meal plan can be in the initial stages though).

Monday, June 29, 2020

My Zero Waste Period Routine + GIVEAWAY

Today I share how to zero waste your period and use sustainable, reusable products to better the earth, your health and your wallet. Hereby my favorites, a little how-to guide for inserting the menstrual cup, my honest review, and my recommendations depending on your flow!

Personally, I've tried the menstrual cup, period pants, and reusable pads. There's definite pros and cons to each, so watch the video to learn more!

- Subscribe to my YouTube channel, and leave a comment below telling me why you like the channel!
- Follow @hanne.arts and @cheekywipes on Instagram
- Find the giveaway Instagram post and complete the last two steps there:

The first place winner will receive a full reusable period starter kit, and three lucky follow-up winners will get their own reusable period underwear.

Friday, June 26, 2020

My HORRIBLE Inpatient Experience

Today's video is a more serious one. Today, I decided to have an open and honest chat about my anorexia hospitalizations. Over the years, I have been hospitalized five times. Four of these five were in general psychiatric wards rather than specialized eating disorder units, and let me tell you that the contrast is stark! For that reason, I wanted to share my experiences with you, and I hope you learn something from them. Whichever treatment plan you go for -- it is a CHOICE. Your future is at stakes, so choose the right one for you.

Friday, June 19, 2020

What I Eat in THREE Days + HOUSE TOUR

I've got some exciting news for you all today! TOM AND I MOVED IN TOGETHER! I asked you all on Instagram what you thought the big reveal would be, and many suggested getting engaged, having a baby etc. Needless to say, that was a bit of fun! 😜Anyway, we got the cutest apartment, so I decided that called for a little house tour! Whilst I was at it, I also shared with you three days of rambles and quick, tasty meals.

Friday, June 12, 2020

How to: Easy Homemade MOCK MEAT (Vegan Seitan Recipe)

I share sooo many recipes ft. seitan (i.e. my recent full week of dinners). Here's how I actually make the seitan from scratch!

Friday, June 5, 2020

Coping with Triggers During Isolation | Eating Disorder Recovery

A few weeks ago I received an email. The girl was upset, and wanted to know how to deal with the constant comparison she was unable to leave behind. Particularly now during self-isolation, as she was 'locked in' with housemates who exercised excessively and were dieting. This is such a common struggle during recovery, but Corona definitely makes this extra-difficult!

Friday, May 29, 2020

Welcome, Warriors! ❤

Hi there! My name is Hanne Arts and a I'm twenty-two year old student, author, YouTuber, and recovery warrior. I started writing when I was about seven, and I began incorporating some of my own mental health struggles into my works from the age of thirteen. I published my debut novel, JUST PERFECT, in December 2014, followed by its sequel, RED RIBBONS, in October 2017.

But that's quite a condensed version of my life, don't you think?

As a child, my life was perfect.  

That is, until it wasn’t anymore.  

In January 2010, I was diagnosed with an eating disorder, anorexia. In February 2010, I was hospitalized. Since then, I have been in and out of hospitals, consistently struggling to build my life up whilst sliding back down.

If someone would have told me, even just five years ago, that things would get better, I don’t think I could have suppressed my laughter. It would have been sinister laughter. Why-on-earth-would-you-say-that laughter, like that of an evil character in a children’s film. I did not believe that I would ever make it out; I felt helpless and trapped in the embrace of an illness that once, just briefly, had promised me that everything would be fine. Everything would be okay if only I tossed out that snack, if only I skipped that meal.  

For almost six years of my life, my mind was consumed. I was obsessed. I fell into the eating disorder’s arms, unable to break free. Every morning and every night, I would sneak upstairs to weigh myself. Every mealtime, I would consider how to get away with eating less and less. Every night, I cried myself to sleep. I felt worthless. I wished for a way out.  

I wished to sleep. Forever. When the morning sun awoke me from a restless night, I was disappointed. A new day – the same struggles.

Meanwhile, I saw my parents break down. Whilst I turned into a shadow of my former self, they crumbled. They forced me to eat, threatened me with hospitalization, and showered me with more love than I knew anyone could hold within one’s heart. And I hated them for it.  

After all, it was the one thing keeping me there. It was the only thing keeping me tied to the life I so desperately wanted to step out of.  

They sobbed and I sobbed; they sent me to treatment and I went. Gradually, the weight crept up. Gradually, the bad moods lifted, if even just a little. What was there, I wondered, further down this path? Would the veil that obscured my life finally lift? Was there a light at the end of the tunnel?  

There was no way to know. Not unless I followed the path. And I decided it was worth the risk.   

Let me tell you now, it is worth the risk. It is a winding road, but it is paved; there are poisonous berries and thorn bushes, but no bad wolves or evil gnomes. It sure as hell is a safer route than the alternative, and I really think you should consider it. You won’t know if you don’t try.   

Had I not taken the risk, I would have never known. I would have never experienced the wonders that make up life. I would have never experienced shameless pleasure, unapologetic joy, and that incredible emotion that comes so naturally to children – carefree nonchalance.   

Today, I live abroad, I attend university, and I have a boyfriend. Food is no longer at the forefront of my priorities list. I am ED- thought and behaviour free. I have a successful YouTube channel and two much-praised published books. I work, I travel, I enjoy my life.  

And I know that I will wake up tomorrow morning, excited when the sun awakes me from a restful sleep.

My Anorexia RELAPSE Story + Exclusive Video Series

I have relapsed. As do about one in three women treated for eating disorders within two years of being discharged from the hospital. Today, I want to tell you my story. I want to tell you that you are not alone. Setbacks are okay, they are normal, and they can be overcome. Be prepared, be proactive, and get back on track 💪